Funny...

...how life can change so much in what seems like the blink of an eye. Once again I am here alone. This is really okay with me...I would much rather be alone than be in an unhealthy and un-FUN space. I am just too busy with my life anyway. I am totally dedicated to my school and my kids, and wouldn't change a thing. Except I would like my Mom back, or would just like to be able to hug her once. She understood the meaning of unconditional love.

Pain seems to be something I have gotten used to, and am walking through all of it by myself. This is something I never learned to do on my own before. Gotta keep trudgin', regardless of how much it hurts. Something good has got to come my way soon. I keep telling myself that! At least today I feel an awsome connection and balance that I've never felt before, and that gives me huge satisfaction. The circle keeps going around and around, with me in the center instead of on the outside spinning around in confusion!